longing for light

“Then the angel showed me a river with the water of life, clear as crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb.  It flowed down the center of the main street. On each side of the river grew a tree of life, bearing twelve crops of fruit, with a fresh crop each month. The leaves were used for medicine to heal the nations. 

“No longer will there be a curse upon anything. For the throne of God and of the Lamb will be there, and his servants will worship him. And they will see his face, and his name will be written on their foreheads. And there will be no night there—no need for lamps or sun—for the Lord God will shine on them. And they will reign forever and ever.” Revelation 22:1-5

My Abba,

I rejoice that you are the God of my forever. I love that you are not just here today and gone tomorrow.  You are beyond awesome, and you will never abandon me. Your faithfulness is impressive to me – especially when a betrayal hits close to home.

Reading about heaven today gives me renewed stamina to run this race.  I love those you have placed in my life, but I have to admit I want to be free of this world’s struggle and pain. I long for the river of life – clear as crystal, flowing from your throne. I long for a healed body, free from disease.

What will it be like to be free from the curse of sin and death? I truly can’t imagine. But the idea of nothing impeding communion with you sounds magnificent!

I can’t wait for the day when my identity will be completely immersed in yours. I love the image of your name written on my forehead – your everlasting autograph demonstrating to all of creation, for all time, that I belong to you. Thank you that there will be a time when your light will banish all our confusion and darkness, and we will live fully in the radiance of your presence.

So today may be a struggle, but the truth about my forever spurs me on. By the power of your Spirit, I can wait and walk this arduous path with you until I get to the other side.

Please while I am here, though, let me enter into the joy of glorifying you, whether that is in trial, tragedy or triumph.

I love you,

Mollie

My child,

I am sorry you have endured the bitter sting of betrayal. I know how painful that can be. Remember not to dress me in their garments. I am not a betrayer. I will not break my promises or turn my back on you. That is not who I am.

You can trust me when I say we will spend a spectacular eternity together. I know, at times, your circumstances can feel grueling. But that pain will evaporate like a drop of water in the blaze of a fierce summer sun, at the first taste of eternity. 

Nothing on earth can give you an accurate picture of what heaven will be like. Seeing me face to face will change everything. No bleak chasms will scar the landscape of your life.  My light will dispel them all.  

The glorious things you would like to be, and do, will no longer be illusive. No striving, suffering or sadness. Just unhindered joy, love and peace. Christ has made a way for you to fully enjoy me and all my gifts - forever.

That is your future. And it will be worth the wait.

I love you,

Abba

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mollie@mollieaxtell.com