Life Support

“He remembered our utter weakness. His faithful love endures forever. He saved us from our enemies. His faithful love endures forever.” Psalm 136:23-24

My Abba,

My heart and mind are sputtering this morning. I find myself utterly weak and disoriented after trying to navigate a few hours under my own steam. Yesterday, I chose you and your resources and my day was brimming with peace. This morning I kept thinking, “I just need to tend to this one more thing and then I can give you my full attention.” One “urgent” task led to another, one phone call to another, and one emergency to another. Yesterday I handled those things while enjoying your presence – consistently going to you for the next step and solution. I was smiling at day’s end.

 Today I waver between wanting to hunker down under the covers or make my great escape to some fantastical, trouble-free paradise. My enemies – the daily irritants, middleweight dilemmas, and high-octane heartbreakers create a voracious herd. I am no match. My spirit, mind, and body feel like I need life support. I guess I should hold that thought. You are definitely my life support. You always remember my utter weakness, but sometimes I forget. This morning I am, once again, acutely aware of my desperate dependence. Utter weakness calls for utter dependency.

 Am I overwhelmed more easily than others? Or, am I just addicted (bound) to your presence? Perhaps, it is both. I have tasted and seen I cannot thrive without your living water. My sensitivity may make it more difficult to do life without you. I find this journey excruciating at times. It seems “do or die” with me. I do relationship with you, or die to any semblance of an abundant life.

 So today I choose life. I choose the joy of losing myself in your love. I know this glorious experience will cause me to crave you tomorrow, even more than today. I rejoice that there is no limit to the pleasure of your presence!

I love you,

Mollie

My child,

I am glad you want to be with me. I want you to enjoy our relationship as much as I do. The hills and valleys of your day will become less impediment, and more adventure, as we walk them together. If you allow my Spirit to guide you, you won’t see trials as menacing enemies poised to rob you of your joy. Think of these troubles (small and immense) as opportunities to create, cooperate, and participate with me. My faithful love endures forever.

 There will be no shortage of tomorrow’s trials. But the more you immerse yourself in the refreshing waters of my love, the more you will find rest in me.

 Think of when you traveled to the Caribbean – a powder blue sky, dazzling sunlight, and warm ivory beaches embraced by aquamarine waves.  You found it exciting and restful – all at the same time. That is how life can be with me. I can inspire your soul to sing amidst the tumult of churning tides or the stillness of glassy seas.

I love you,

Abba

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