famished for you

“Lord, you have been our dwelling place throughout all generations. Before the mountains were born or you brought forth the whole world, from everlasting to everlasting you are God.” Psalm 90:1-2

My child,

Nothing about your world is permanent except people, my truth, and me. This reality should inform all your decisions. I don’t want you to waste your time, resources and energy indulging in what will disappear. Those short-lived things are as enduring as the morning shade when it is banished by a relentless noonday sun.

You will only be gratified by what will never pass away. You long for permanence. Your soul aches for what will last. My eternal presence is infinitely more enduring than anything you can create to simulate permanence.

You want something that will endure for a reason. You are an eternal creature with a heart and mind that will live forever. I made your heart for bigger things than the trappings of this world. I made you for more than the pursuit of ease or the drone of worry.

I am without beginning or end. I AM. Enter into the beauty of my eternal plans for you. You were designed to live in truth and love with me and your brothers and sisters, forever.

I love you,

Abba

My Abba,

I know it is a good thing that I desire more than this world can provide. My soul cries out for something eternal and supernatural. Sometimes I run to you for your generous soul satisfaction. Sometimes I don’t.

When I choose to seek solace in a created thing and it doesn’t satisfy me, I may foolishly run to the next temporal fix hoping for a different outcome. I know trying the same thing over and over again expecting a different outcome is insanity. But that is what I am doing when I put what is petty on my pedestal. I know the dissatisfying end of that story.

Sometimes my spiritual hunger reminds me of my physical hunger. If I am physically hungry enough, I can be tempted to eat almost anything. I don’t always look for what’s best. I look for what I think will bring immediate relief. Then afterwards, I usually regret my poor choices. It can be the same for me spiritually.

Thank you that you are ruining my appetite for lesser things, though. The closer I get to you, the more I hunger for what is supernatural and eternal.  The greater the hunger, the more I need you, because nothing else satisfies my soul’s cravings. 

Thank you that you are increasing my awareness of what I need to sate my eternal, supernatural hunger. As someone who has enjoyed exquisite cuisine, I do not want to be seduced by fast food fare.

I find myself more and more dependent on the matchless provision of your table. I am losing my desire to dine anywhere else. When I am vulnerable and famished, please delight me with the lavish feast of your presence.

I love you,

Mollie

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